Wednesday, November 23, 2011
Being the overly introspective type, nonetheless, this landmark birthday does give me pause. What does it mean to turn 40? What does it mean to move into this new decade? I didn’t want to let this one go by without a good ponder. And my dear friend Tina feels like I am some sort of trailblazer as I am a year older than her to the week, and one year older as a momma. She called me last night to remind me that I had not yet shared my musings. I was so honored that she even wanted to hear them that I am trying to oblige her now.
I asked a few of my personal trailblazers: how was or is the 40th decade? And what was your favorite decade? I received the expected mix of answers, but almost all of them asserted that the 40s are a good decade, a year of coming into to your power as a woman, especially. I like that. By 40, you finally feel confident enough of yourself to be yourself. And to like yourself. And to know what you need and when you need it and then go and get it. I like all of this. I can see why it would be true.
I am a little sorry to leave my 30s behind though. The first 5 years of 30 were pretty good. I had an extremely fulfilling run as “Urban Artistic Single Woman” who was all hip and had all kinds of adventures and had freedom and a large community of friends and activities.. I miss my very sweet apartment, the 3rd floor of a triple decker in Somerville, filled with sunshine and my artwork and my cat and my books. My time was my own – a concept I suppose you never appreciate until it’s gone. Then I met Mr. Right and oh my goodness, it has been a whirlwind ever since. I won’t bother tracking all the changes (most of which have been tracked in this blog), but let’s just say I’ve gone from “Urban Artistic Single Woman” to “Suburban Exhausted Working Mom Who Can Barely See Straight.” In some ways, all my childhood dreams have come true. And in some ways, the transition has been one of the two toughest times of my life. My world is definitely much smaller and much more chaotic. I also think becoming a new mom later in life has its advantages (maturity, gratitude, stability, lots of friends with help and advice) and some disadvantages (less stamina is a big one). So my age does have an impact on my parenting.
I’ve always envisioned my 45 year old self as this wise person who looks back in time at me and smiles, both a little ruefully at all the flailing about I do, but also with encouragement. That it will turn out OK, that I’m doing fine, that it will be fine in 10 years … now 5 years. She looks calm and has found the place where I need to be. So now I’m that much closer to finding her, even if I feel like I’m a bit frayed around the edges these days. So yes, 40 is just fine with me.
Saturday, August 20, 2011
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
- Go to an ice cream stand and eat the ice cream outside and having it drip down my arm
- At least 2 beach days where we have time to swim, walk, read, snooze and build sand castles (ie just a walk doesn’t cut it)
- Cooking things on an outdoor fire, most importantly, smores (will do this on vacation)
- Going to the local pool
- Take Peanut to local baby pool
- Playing in the backyard pool from grocery store (already did this, yay!)
- Eating popsicles in the backyard (already did this, yay!)
- Making ice cream with the kids (have them create a crazy flavor)
- Lobster on the backyard porch at mom and dad’s (coming up, yay!)
- Fireworks! (could we do this on vacation or in New Hampshire on a weekend?)
- Walden Pond at least one time where I can swim!
- Go out to eat at a restaurant where we sit outside and have drinks
- Go for a boat/kayak ride (we can plan to do this on vacation, but maybe also in our town)
- Eat watermelon outside
- Eat cherries outside
- Water balloon fight/squirt gun fight
- Go pick fruit somewhere
- Trip to secret New Hampshire swimming hole? (this one is as little more ambitious as it is a weekend away)
- See some fireflies (probably on vacation)
Sunday, June 12, 2011
We had quite a day. We crossed our fingers that the rain would hold off so we could play in the backyard, but it was not to be. We moved everything inside and managed to squish far too many people in our house. The Peanut played with all the kids and we all enjoyed her new toys and books. We were celebrating her birthday but also our survival of our first year as new parent and whew, what a year it was. I'll try and post the happy birthday video later but for now we thought you'd like to see a few pictures of the birthday girl.
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Saturday, April 09, 2011
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Size and Shape: Definitely can't fit into the 6 months anymore and sometimes even 12 month sizes are a bit small. 17 1/2 pounds. She is definitely getting more hair and occasionally has bedhead which is endlessly amusing to me.